Lingering Loneliness
You're lonely, yet you want to be alone.
I stare at the walls
I stare at the ceilings
Hundreds of people I recognize
None to share my feelings
Big dreams, big goals
Is there a meaning?
Or any worth in leaning?
Or end to this dreaming?
Hues of Grey and Blue
Ask me questions of woe
So petty, so cruel
What have you accomplished so far?
What could you do?
To have lived that life on your terms
To do what you wanted to
And here I stare again
Dumbfounded and overpowered
Sleepless one o'clocks, longer showers
Binge-watching shows for hours
Recoiling into shyness, being a coward
Nowhere want to be seen
Running on emptiness, deeply scoured
You are lonely, yet you want to be alone
Speech is a burden, I'll go back to my comfort zone
Pausing dozen times a day, passing time along
Ruminate what I would say, where I do belong
Self-perpetuating cycle of pitiness and withdrawn
Default state of loneliness, oh what a shitstorm!