Mellow Maturity

Tears falling after a tough day

Where exactly am I headed to?

I though I had suffered enough

But looks like

It’s still a long way to go

As if I’m alone in this wide world

As if no one is willing to empathize these feelings unfold

When I close my eyes

I imagine the look of myself

Tell thyself

Do not be tired

Instead, stop for a while

Tell thyself

To never-ending darkness

That doesn’t seem to leave

If you can leave me

I’ll be able to open up

The mellow maturity of grief

Among happy and smiling people

The only person with lost expression

I’m just a stranger

Empty chats, thoughts full of confusion

Did I run forward mindlessly for sometime?

Now that my dreams have gotten so far away?

Will this endless sadness ever end?

Will there be a time when days of sunshine feels warm again?

I’ll become my full self

And the stars will keep shining

Those are the dreams that keeps me alive

That I keep dreaming

Am I a fool?

That’s what it feels like

Not knowing I can’t be myself

One day I may realize

After I open my eyes

I’ll become my full self

And the stars will keep shining

Those are the dreams that keeps me alive

That I keep dreaming

On someday, sometime at some place

Will my little world finally smile?

The journey of life, so called life

Will it be easy just for a little while?